Friday, June 17, 2005

Another test....

I got this one from FreeFlowThought. First, my results.....

you are mediumauqamarine

Your dominant hues are cyan and green. Although you definately strive to be logical you care about people and know there's a time and place for thinking emotionally. Your head rules most things but your heart rules others, and getting them to meet in the middle takes a lot of your energy some days.

Your saturation level is medium - You're not the most decisive go-getter, but you can get a job done when it's required of you. You probably don't think the world can change for you and don't want to spend too much effort trying to force it.

Your outlook on life is brighter than most people's. You like the idea of influencing things for the better and find hope in situations where others might give up. You're not exactly a bouncy sunshine but things in your world generally look up.
the html color quiz

I'm not sure I agree with the last paragraph, but since I started this at 2 am and got scared out of my wits by a raccoon at my window about 3 foot from me, its no wonder I was rattled. The house was quiet, I was sitting here in the glow of the monitor, no sounds but the ceiling fan barely making a sound above my head, when I heard a loud noise right next to me. The critter was under the radar as my floodlight with the motion sensor didn't go off. I don't normally leave the window open, but we have had a slight cooling of temps so tonight I finally decided to turn the air off and let some real fresh air into the house. Silly me. The window is closed now and my heartbeat is getting back to normal.

I had the appointment with my attorney today. We may have the arbitration thing Wednesday, but he won't know till Wednesday for sure. He said the way arbitration works is that they don't schedule it till that morning, so I have to be ready and need to be within 30 minutes of the place. I live 45 minutes from the place. He said he doubts if he finds out anything until after noon, so to go ahead and go to class. I have another speech due Wednesday, but scheduled it for Thursday since I wasn't sure if I would be there. Now, it looks like I will be there Wednesday but maybe not Thursday. Crap. I wish this was over with. He said they will probably settle, but just in case we have to be ready. The attorney that is handling the opposing side is on vacation till Tuesday, so he may call Wednesday morning and want to settle. Thats what I am hoping happens. I hope he is just using this as a tactic to make sure my attorney earns his money. I don't know. I told my attorney I get real intimidated and then I get nervous and mess up. He told me about who would be there, where I need to sit, who I need to look at, and just told me to answer the questions as they are asked. He said its pretty informal, told me what a nice and fair person the arbitrator is. Personally, I'm glad he is a nice person, and good at his job, but I would prefer never to meet him, at least in a professional capacity. I just want this crap over with.

I was noticing today that my scars are not hardly noticable. I really had to look for one of them. I don't have the strength I used to, and probably never will again. I didn't realize until he asked me how much I have changed the way I do things to compensate for the lack of strength and fear of damaging them again. The dr. that did the surgery said there is only about a 5% chance that I will get it again, but I don't want to take any chances. I think thats why the rate is so low, no one wants to risk carpal tunnel a 2nd time. That's one reason I don't want to get back into a factory setting. I don't want to risk it. The sleepless nights, the numbing hands, the limitations of things I can do.

Time to try to get some more sleep. The contractor is coming today to see when we can get this roof underway. Good night, God Bless, and keep me in your prayers. Thanks.

1 comment:

Le Synge Bleu said...

i know what you mean about not wanting to meet the artbiter at all etc. the legal battles do equally as much damage as that which we may be fighting; the wear and tear is enormous. good luck with that - breathe, breathe and breathe through the frustration.

thanks for your post on the dead parents society, you chimed in beautifully.