Monday, March 10, 2008

Oh yeah...

I just noticed tomorrow would be my wedding anniversary, if I was still married. It would have been 25 years. It doesn't seem possible. We were only married for 4 1/2 years. He's on #3 wife last I heard. Man, I hate being single some days. (weeks, years, decades, etc...) but I don't think I am compatible with anyone that I would want a relationship with. Maybe that's another reason I'm a little melancholy tonight.

God Bless. (and K, I hope you at least remember from time to time.)


Well, it's been awhile. I had to dust the cobwebs out before I could get on here. A lot of things have changed, and a lot of things have stayed the same.

I got the job I went to the interview for. I started the end of November. I really like it. It's hard, and I have to use my brain a lot. I think that's a good thing to keep the brain cells firing for when I get old. LOL. It isn't interesting to most people, nor should it be. Hahaha. My job title is RMA specialist and I work for a dental company. A lot of it is boring, but I still like it. It's frustrating at times, but what isn't? I wonder how some people can even get themselves out of bed some days with some of the stuff I deal with. It just makes me feel better about myself in general. :)

Anyway, it's great to have a paycheck again, and it's a great company to work for. My boss is great. The people I work with are fun. The drive is a long one, over an hour, but I enjoy it unless the weather is bad, or threatening to be bad. It gives me a lot of time to think. Sometimes it's a good thing, and sometimes not so good.

Today I was really feeling sorry for myself. I got my taxes done Saturday. I was concerned I was going to have to pay in, which luckily I didn't. I only get back about $250 total, and it cost me $125 to get them done. Yeah, that sucked. At least I know they are right. Next year I should be able to do them myself again. I cashed out my IRA last year, so I was concerned about that. I would rather be right and broke than wrong and owing the government money. I was hoping to get enough to pay my propane bill. That didn't happen. I own $905 for one fill of my tank, and I'm almost on empty again. I don't know what to do. I usually go through 3 tankfuls a winter, but have stretched this one tank out as far as it will go. I wear my robe over my clothes when I'm home, and make sure we have something on our feet at all times. I don't know if they will deliver till I pay on it. I need to call them and see. I could put it on my charge card, but cripes. My payments will go up more, and I can barely pay it now. I had to get a car or I wouldn't have been able to make it to work. I was spending $100 a week on gas when I was driving the truck. Now it's $50. I have to pay babysitting, which I didn't before, so that's taking a chunk. Even though I'm making decent money an hour, my insurance through work is costing me over $300 a month. I can't even afford to take the time off to go to the dr so I'm paying for insurance I don't have time to use.

I know it will work out. I know God will take care of me. He always has. I am getting discouraged, especially when they tacked on a 30 day past due fee on my propane bill. :( My homeowners insurance is coming up, and time to renew the license for the truck. Everyone wants money, and I don't have it to give. Keep me in your prayers please.

God Bless.