Saturday, February 26, 2005

Saturday morning....

I am getting out of my funk over missing Jerry. He was like a drug to me. Even though I was pushing him away, only because I didn't want to be an enabler, I thought it was for his own good. I guess it was too little, too late. Ah well. A wasted life. (ok, maybe I'm not, but am working on it. )

I got a bread machine Thursday night. Needless to say, I have wanted one for a very long time. The kid loves cinnamon raisin bread, so I will find a mix for it. I googled recipes but some of them have ingredients I have never heard of. The b'f is low carbing it, and I have been toying with the idea, so I was trying to find some low carb bread for the machine. I stumbled on a cool site that has a message board. I LOVE good message boards, so I am seriously considering taking the plunge. I know I will, but crap. I JUST GOT A BREAD MACHINE! I made a loaf of whole wheat bread yesterday, and have a mix for hawaiian bread. I am hunting some low carb mixes. I know they exist, but the small store I was at yesterday didn't have any. I don't know why I am so afraid of getting hot looking (and feeling). Its not like I can get pregnant any more. Sex was always great when I was smaller. Now I don't even want it. I think that depends a lot on the partner. Hmmmmmmmm, going for low carbs to sex in the same paragraph. (Too much coffee and wheat bread for breakfast I think. ) Maybe some pent up frustration there.

I had lunch with some of the girls I used to work with yesterday. The only one still working there is fast approaching her last day. Next Friday, and her birthday is Tuesday. She has been there about 27 years. She works part time at Walmart too, but is going to full time. I wish her well. It was great to get together. We talked about what everyone is doing. A couple of them who are barely older than me are babysitting grandkids. Not much money in that, thats for sure. One doesn't get paid at all, and I am sure the other one treats it just like a job, and gets paid. We sat at the restaurant for 3 hours. It was great.

My friend that is having a severe life change/b'f problem called me on the way home. Her b/f is out on bond now and called her. She said she didn't tell him where she moved. I don't know if she can keep it up, I think she will be seeing him again. She says she just wants to get money from him now. Maybe she didn't really love him like I thought? I told her she just needs to get away, cos any money she gets may not be kosher anyway. She didn't act like that was a concern. I just say run, run QUICKLY.

Time to get moving. I am going to dye my hair today before b'f gets here. It will be real extreme for a day or two, but I didn't want to do it before lunch yesterday, but want it somewhat "toned down" for class on Monday. It makes me feel hot, even if I don't look it. That and the colored undearwear does wonders for my disposition. I even exercised yesterday. AGAIN! :)

God Bless, and hug your loved ones.

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