Keep me in your prayers....

I'm going to go apply for a job in the morning. Its an office job. It's right next door to the place I used to work, so the drive would be ideal, since when I bought this house I had planned to retire at the place I was working. The job consists of customer service, typing, and data entry. I can do those. I feel pretty confident about my skills in those. A friend had called me and told me it was in the paper. I made a mistake however. :( The friend of mine who is working on her internship also gets the paper, and is more computer savvy than the person that called me about the job. I emailed my computer savvy friend (putting it loosely, because she still can't figure out why she can't change things on a cd once she burns it and its read only.) Anyway, I asked her if she could email me the ad from the newspaper. The response I got was that she typed it out because she didn't want to cut it out because her husband hadn't read the paper yet. I don't know if she thought it would make it invisible if she scanned it, or what. I've seen her scanner, and she could lay the whole paper on it, but I digress. She said it looked like a good job, and she might apply too. WHAT?????? Any time she has told me about a job she planned on applying for, I never did because she found it first. Now, if she applies, and gets the job, I will probably never speak to her again. I thought it was a courtesy thing, but I guess it was just a courtesy on my end. I am so angry with her right now for even suggesting that she go for it.
I waited awhile, so I could calm down. I then emailed her back that I hope they had more than one position open if she was going to apply too. She got unemployment 16 weeks longer than I did. She has a husband that makes good money. She has a son that lives at home that works. I haven't had income since my internship, which was less than $80 a week. That was in Dec. when that ended. I have been living off of (what was supposed to be) my retirement. I NEED THIS JOB!

I pray that I get it. I pray its the one God wants me to have. I pray that if this isn't it, I find the one soon that He wants me to have. I don't want to go through all my savings. I hate living paycheck to paycheck, and never having enough. My car isn't going to last forever. My son needs clothes. At the rate I am losing weight, I need clothes too. My "friend" acts like she has it worse than anyone else on the planet, and it drives me crazy. I have to remind her to be grateful for what she has. She has a husband who loves her and does anything she asks of him, and then some. They went to Hawaii for over a week. Then she complains about not having enough money. GIVE ME A BREAK! They only buy brand new vehicles, never used. They have a beautiful home.

I pray for my friend also. She really needs counseling. She has so many issues, but she won't go. (Thats one of her issues. She thinks they are all quacks.) I had an excellent counselor. But my friend thinks when you go to a counselor its because you are crazy. I'm not crazy. Just pissed at the moment. I am concerned about being able to support myself and my son.

Anyway, off of my soapbox. Please pray I get a job soon. This job or not. I want God to lead me. If they call, fine, if not, I hope He sends something else my way, soon. Thanks. God Bless.