I have always loved love. My favorite genre to read is clean romance. I don't need to read about sex when it's not in my life.
I'm reading a really good book right now called Lowcountry Lost by T I Lowe. It's been really good, but it just made me really sad. The love in this book seems so real. It's made me yearn for what I don't have.
I have been in love a few times. Married once, lived with a guy once. Had boyfriends, one I loved desperately, and others that were not for me. 3 serious loves in my life. The husband called it quits after 4 years. Guy I lived with decided he liked a friend of mine better than he did me. The boyfriend I loved desperately had a drinking problem, so I had to walk away.
I love people. My son, his wife, friends, family.
The love in the book I'm reading goes back to childhood. Just reading about the feelings they have shared through their whole life so far just reminded me I'm not going to have that. I don't even know what to write, but I need it to leave my head and go out my fingers. It just saddens me that there is no one I can do sweet little things for, no one to wrap their arms around me when I need it, or even when I don't need it. (I guess there is such a thing) I really miss having a special man in my life.
I'm 65 now. I just... I don't know.... feel like I missed out on a big part of life. I just wish it could have been different, but I don't know how I could have changed it.
I'm just in my feels tonight, and no one wants to hear that. I don't even know what to pray about that anymore.
God Bless.
I hope you have good love in your life.